Secret #11 Design

So many don't know this but I love looking at the design and decor of homes and apartments. Ikea is one of my favorite stores because it often blends New Age looks with a Natural flare. It may sound kind of gay but I really love it. I subscribe to a few blogs that really let me see whats interesting and cool. Most of the items on these blogs are either way too "out there" or too expensive. But occasionally there is that item I see that I just love and want. Above are two examples. If I just had a little money I would totally get these for my apt. the wheels are 80 dollars for eleven vinyl wheels in different colors. And the squares are 60 dollars for 12. I got them from this website:

http://www.loxii.com/index.php?act=17

and they have some other cool things. Anyway it's fun to dream at least.

Secret #10 Eruct

Okay, this one requires an explanation. Please don't judge me. So, I'm a pretty normal guy, all things considered, right? One day, when I was living in New York as a missionary, I woke up and had to really burp. So I did. Then I had to do it again. And again. And AGAIN! I could not stop burping. It drove my comp. crazy. It began to drive me crazy. I talked to a doctor and he said there was nothing wrong with me, but I couldn't stop. Now I don't burp all the time, but I would say that I burp more than the average person. It mostly happens in the mornings and at night just before bed, which is not that bad. Anyway right now I just live with it, I wish it would stop but I'm getting use to it. Once again, please don't judge.

Secret #9 Cooking

I really love cooking. I can't say that I'm an amazing cook or anything- in fact, most of my recipes are remakes of my mom's recipes. My most recent dish was spaghetti. It turned out pretty good too. It's been really fun. I've been trying to cook or bake something every week. It's really been fun. I especially love making desserts. It turns out that desserts are my specialty- only problem is, I can't make too many desserts since I'm trying to eat healthy- try making two dozen cookies and then having to find someone to eat them before you gobble them up yourself. Anybody want some spaghetti sauce?

Secret #8 Tina Fey

If I could marry any movie star I wanted I would marry Tina Fey from 30 Rock, or even Liz Lemon (Tina Fey's character on 30 Rock). I just think that she is so beautiful and talented. She not only is a great actor but she's the head writer for 30 Rock, she wrote Baby Mama with Amy Poehler, and was head writer at SNL while she was there. She's smart, funny, witty, and all around an amazing woman. It's just too bad she's allready married and has kids. But hey! A guy can dream can't he?

Secret #7 Rupert

Okay this may sound creepy to some people (it does to me and I'm the one experiencing it), but I have never felt so connected to any of my pets as I do now to my Betta Fish Rupert. I can sit in front of his bowl for hours just staring at him. he's mesmerizing. I know that he can sense me personally (even though fishes brains are tiny and have short attention spans). When he looks right at me, like in the second picture, I feel as if we are sharing that moment together. He sees me and I see him and we are linked for that time. Remember, I am not into weird stuff, I have never experienced this with any other pet, and yet I cannot explain how it happens. I know it's ridiculous and that I should get a life or at least a girlfriend, but I really feel a vibe with Rupert. Anyway, judge me if you want but I challenge you to come stare at that fish for just ten minutes and tell me you feel nothing mesmerizing or hypnotic. It will blow your mind. Consider your mind blown.

Secret #6 Photoshop

Original Photoshoped

I've given up trying to take really good pictures. It use to be that I would see something beautiful and think "Man! If only I had my camera here to capture this moment. It would be so amazing!" So one day I decided to pack my camera along with me. I saw some nice things and felt so lucky I had my camera with me. (Now, granted I am not a professional photographer. I've had not training of any kind. I just like to take pictures.) The problem is that nothing seemed to turn out the way I wanted it to. My eyes cannot seem to transfer to the camera. Now I just take decent pictures (like the one on the top) and edit them in Photoshop to be slightly better (hence the one on the bottom). I prefer this method right now, but I am still slightly perturbed that, although the Photoshoped picture looks better, it still cannot capture completely the image as my eye saw it. Usually it's a completely different image.

secret #5 Noses

I hate noses! I think that of all the parts of the face, when it comes to looks, that the nose is the most disgusting. It's not even that I hate my nose all that much... I just don't like them in general. Understandably I can see benefits to the nose: being able to breath in a second location, adding a nice balance between the eyes, and filling up dead space in the face (there is a lot when you look at the edited picture of myself). But they protrude out in such a fashion that a nose by itself is simply ugly. Granted people can have a nice looking face, and the nose can fit that face perfectly, but the nose by itself is still ugly to me. That's how it is. It's just how I feel.

Secret #4 Dear at Night

(First of all this is not my picture. I got it off the internet. It's best if you open up the picture to get the full effect)
Just as this picture could freak you out, I get freaked out by deer at night. I now live in a basement apt. in Provo above the temple and there are deer everywhere. It freaks me out because they sneak up on you. Suddenly you turn a corner and there are like six deer walking across the road. And it doesn't matter if you are driving or walking, the minute you see those deer they feel your presence and stair you back. Imagine twelve freaky reflective eyes staring back at you. It feels like they look through your soul.
At night when I come home. I have to walk all the way around the house to enter our apt. and even though there are gates keeping deer out of the back yard, I still get so creeped out that there will be deer back there. DEER, not someone breaking in to the house, or a mugger, or anything else. I worry about the deer staring at me. It's so unnerving.

p.s. sorry this post is late. I need to be better at that.

Secret #3 Road Rage

I get intense road rage when I'm driving in the car by myself. I know that it's not good and worrisome but I control it pretty good. It's not like I always have road rage when I drive. It just happens occasionally. In some ways I find it a nice release since driving in the car is one of the only times that I think about my life and work through any problems I have. I've been able to figure out a lot of things in my life while driving around. I think sometimes I'm screaming at my problems more than I am the people who cut me off.

Secret #2 Taco Bell

I am in love with Taco Bell. Specifically I love their 7 layer burritos. The problem is that when I am with friends and we're trying to decide where to eat I usually do not suggest Taco Bell because I think other people consider it a "second rate" fast food place. As if Wendy's and such are better than it and only trashy people eat there. So I eat there usually by myself and feel slightly guilty for loving a "second rate" restaurant.

30 Secrets in 30 Days

So I found out about this real cool thing that people are doing. It's not one of those tag things where since I did it now you have to do it, it's just a fun thing to let people in on who you are. So this is how it goes. Each day you post a secret and a picture (simple or not) that represents that secret on your blog. You do this every day for a month or 30 days. It can be a huge secret, or a small simple secret. People will find out about me and I have fun thinking of secrets and ways to reveal them. Now, I cannot promise that I will have a secret everyday. I'm just not that diligent, but I will promise that eventually I will have 30 secrets on my blog. So here we go:

Secret #1

Often I am amazed at the way I deal with the people around me. I was an actor for a while and I have a talent for figuring out what people are like and mimicking their personalities while still attempting to maintain my own. It has occasionally gone so far as to "adopt" their political or moral beliefs. I have found myself wondering at times if I did what I did because of who I am, or if it was to appeal to the people around me. I question who I really am if I am constantly adapting to please others. Sometimes it scares me.